Tonight He went to bed mad at me. He left. He texted me from bed telling me not to text him because he was so hurt by how much I disrespected him today..

I begged him not to go and he didn't listen. The tears just came.

I found myself in the fetal position on the living room floor sobbing hysterically, having trouble breathing, and getting boogers everywhere for about an hour.

I started talking to my invisible mom as if I was twelve years old again and begged her not to go. I asked her why she was leaving me. I closed my eyes and remember that man's hands on my body. I remembered the feeling.

I could see my dad's rage and hear his mean words.

I just cried. I begged them to stop, all of these people. I asked them why they didn't protect me.

Why didn't they protect me? Why?